Last Time I Held Your Hands
Last Time I Held Your Hands explores the complicated relationship between the filmmaker Kristoffer and his mother Pining, vis-à-vis a traumatic past that the filmmaker was unable to share before losing his mother to the pandemic. Using hand-drawn animation mixed with archive footage, interspersed with both fictional and actual conversations of the filmmaker and his mother - this film will show the complexities of familial relationships, the power of memory to create strong bonds beyond death, and the impact of suddenly losing a loved one to the pandemic.
With a memory of his mother rescuing him from falling into a marsh filled with garbage, Kristoffer uses different versions of this scene and connects it to the places his mother had frequented while she was still alive. He will visit the places his mother had visited and ask people there about his mother –leading to deeper discussions about their own ideations of motherhood. The filmmaker will also converse with people who have lost loved ones to the pandemic, and they will talk about grieving and lost chances, having been deprived of the opportunity to further commune with their loved ones.
From a child’s point of view to his adult self’s perspective, the filmmaker tries to discover how his mother saw him as a child through the belongings she left behind. As he unfurls his mother’s old things with his siblings, the filmmaker eventually confesses his traumatic past to them, a scarring experience that he failed to tell their own mother.